why

i have to ask myself, what is the purpose in this blog if i hardly use it. do i need some sort of outlet to express my inmost feelings that bad? do i crave to be known so much so that i just send it out into the internet world? it drives me nuts that i want to be known by people, yet for all the wrong reasons. but don't we all cry out, continually, for someone to just hear us and understand us? look around. everyone has a blog, a facebook, twitter, some sort of method of just getting it "out there", somewhere, anywhere for SOMEONE to know. we crave to be known.

but at the same time, we aren't actually allowing ourselves to be known. no fulfillment comes from dumping my thoughts on the screen and then shutting the laptop. who is receiving it? who is responding? is anyone out there? am i even being honest? where are my unadulterated thoughts and feelings? absolutely not for all to see. that's too private.. but here, i'll allude to something and we'll call it a day.

so what do i do with the ultimate unknown? praise God for God is all i can say.